o la

i keep checking this thing hoping that there will be something new and exciting, but i forget that im the one that has to write something.

so its beautiful outside and thats awesome.

god i cant wait for this semester to be over.

its just more of that he said she said

He said:
kind of friends?!
take that back, you dont mean that, take that back.

she said:



he said:
you know me better than anyone. you've seen everything.


she said:




(what does he know about me?)

but she would have to say that to make it count.
and that would be selfish.





1)say you're sorry 100 times a day.
2)tell yourself you're the only one you can rely on.
3)realize that the world owes you nothing.
4)remind yourself not a soul is contracted to do, be, or say anything for you.
5)dont let your mouth go about your problems, no one cares.
6)remain objective when listening to refrain from caring too much.
7)please do not cry in public.
8)stay still in order to not draw any attention to yourself.
9)isolate all feelings until they become fragmented and spastic.
10)scream.

to the skin

i just figured out why i do this

ive been trying to write a story about you megan
and its not the best but you're whats on my mind
so i hope, eventhough after so long there has been nothing
but bad e-mails and depseration and love
because you're the only one that checks
i hope you check again.
the world is big, but there are only so many people you really think about.


if i am history now
I'm listening to Paul Simon
like a young girl hooked on an american icon
(something like televsion and magazines)
an eigth of a beer left
(if you cant come up with that disjuction)
to leave me in my own
no more fat boy cause he cant go slim without an addiction.

slip sliding away
come back now to the piece of you that you cant remember
slip sliding away
if i cant remember what am i sliding from
slip sliding away
towards
you know the nearer your destination
the more you slip slidin away

i wish the voice was so smooth to explain
these are the very words she uses to describe her life

dolores, slip slidin away

my love for you is so overpowering that im afraid i might dissapear

a good day aint got no reign
a bad day
is when i lay in bed and think of things that might have been


never been a parent.
from what i know, i dont know what that feels like.

then theres god and life
the voice can make someone calm
for four minutes and 43 seconds
then you're on your own