life, how dare i imagine, is not so simple
let me present the questions before i lose them in the answers
if the truth is the whole then is it legitimate to desire the whole in the one we love? or are we dreaming.
is there really a complete person....or are we just craving ourselves personified?
why do we feel guilty about being perceived well by others?
why do we put ourselves in uncomfortable situations when we are positive that even before the occur they will indeed be uncomfortable?
why do we discuss foreign issues when in the end, we're discussing issues only personal to ourselves?
maybe i should just leave it at the questions and keep context out of the response. im tired, and craved drinks in good company. these are the last circumstances i wish upon myself in face of these extremely important questions. i know for certain that three people read this...all of you are capable of designing thoughts for the presented argument. thus so, here is my final question.
is caring effortless?
lets see if you think twice.
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it's not that i didn't see the question. it was just hard to know how to respond. the initial impulse is to say Yes. It's effortless.
but i think that's wrong.
i think making the decision to care, and to really care, and to care all the time as best you can, is one of the biggest efforts anyone can ever make.
and i think that's why my relationships fall apart. because when it comes down to it, i'm not good at it. i get scared when my caring isn't enough. when it can't be enough.
because what drives caring? i mean, really. initially, you care about people because you like them, you're interested in them, they strike a chord in you, blah blah blah. eventually, you care about someone in spite of messes of obstacles and weird feelings and musty old memories and baggage baggage baggage.
it's easy, as dad and i said, to care about strangers. harder to care about people you know.
i love you.
i look at the question now, so dead set before on what my answer was, and dont even know how to interpret it myself.
welcome to the moment.
diss, would you believe i went and got myself a blog? you're the only one who knows about it right now, and i have a feeling that's because you're the person i'm most comfortable talking to. but speaking is not exactly my forte...nor is writing, but i am at least a little better at writing.
that said...caring is never effortless. sure we've all cared about someone or something and felt that, by caring, we had gotten nowhere or even further behind than where we had started. but can't we take a little solace in the fact that we still do care about something? and you never know what your caring may have meant to them. for some people, a hug or a simple "hey how are you" might be all they have going, and if you were the one that gave it to them, doesn't that matter? needless to say i am nowhere near as intellegent or articulate as you and your loving sisterhead, but i at least wanted to give it a shot. or maybe i'm just a naive little bitch who thinks everyone is handing out free candy and looking for lost puppies.
o my good god. heaven has just come to my earth.
sisterhead meet cat. cat meet sisterhead. we form the trinity of all things sweet and unholy.
please dont hesitate to say hello, pass a salt shaker, comment on each other's comments.
i love you both.
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